DENVER By: Frances M. McCrory-Meservy March-August 1969
Al had been acting jealous for a long time but it got worse in Denver. He was jealous of everyone (girl friends, etc.). I could not go to the Laundromat or anywhere else without him accusing me of something. I took the kids with me everywhere I went and was only gone long enough to wash the clothes or get groceries. I would try to get Al to go with me but he would not. It was as if he enjoyed his misery.
His jealousy came from a lack of self-esteem. He didn't think he was good enough for anyone to love and his past proved that no one wanted him. If Mom and Dad don't want me, why would any one else? I had never given him reason to doubt my fidelity. I hated jealousy more than anything - that's why I broke up with Ronnie in college. Had I known that Al was the Jealous type I would have never married him.
Looking back, I realize that I was very independent and even though that is one of the things that Al like about me, he took it to mean I did not need him. I never could get him to understand that I always asked myself "would Al do it that way" or "would Al like that" before I did anything. He was always on my mind even when he was out to sea.
In Denver, he wanted to file bankruptcy and I flat refused. I believed my word was important and going bankrupt was not keeping my word. To me it was not an honorable thing to do.
The Navy had changed Al's orders after our arrival and they would not pay the extra moving expenses. If we had known that before we moved, I would have stayed in VA until school was over. We were there 5 months instead of a year like his original orders stated.
Because of the extra financial hardship, Al had to work full time for the Navy plus a full time job for us to make it. I put a horrible hardship on him that should have never been.I finally decided I could not take any more and would divorce Al. God intervened and Al came home with orders to Vietnam: I could not leave him until he came back. Change of heart came with time: a year is a long time.
Prov 6:34-35 For jealousy is a husband's fury; Therefore he will not spare in the day of vengeance. He will accept no recompense, Nor will he be appeased though you give many gifts.
Prov 27:4 Wrath is cruel and anger a torrent, But who is able to stand before jealousy?
Song 8:6 Set me as a seal upon your heart, As a seal upon your arm; For love is as strong as death, Jealousy as cruel as the grave; Its flames are flames of fire, A most vehement flame.
Background: We arrived at our motel at about 11 PM & this was my first breathtaking view of the Rocky Mountains & Downtown Denver from the balcony - 8 AM Spring 1968.
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